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It was the most important decision that I had ever made. It has molded me into the person that I am today. It is the reason why I choose to live my life the way that I do. This one decision has given me a reason to hold on in times of struggle and turmoil. It has allowed me to have unbelievable peace. I have given my life to Christ, and this has changed my life forever. The day I gave my life to Christ was the happiest day of my life. It was such a big moment for me as a teenager. For a while, I had been struggling with the decision to do so. Prior to this big step, whenever I thought I was ready to devote my life to christ, something would stop me. It was as if something didn’t want me to go forward with my decision. Something was holding me back with all of its strength. My focus would be taken off of God, and on to something else. There were times when my focus would be on boys. There would always be a boy to distract me and take my mind off of what had been so important to me. There were times when my focus would be on all of my weaknesses. I always felt that there were too many things wrong with me and that I was completely incapable of committing myself. I felt as though I had been standing behind a locked gate, desiring to be on the other side, but not believing it to be possible. For a while, there had been no key available for me.
I knew that all I had to do was make this decision wholeheartedly, and then I would be where I wanted to be in life. Yet, it was a fight between what I knew I needed to do and what I wanted to do. It was a battle between the flesh and the spirit. There were many times when my flesh would win the battles. I would do and say things that I knew I shouldn’t have. I would lie to and disobey my parents. I would put down and ridicule others. However, even with all of the negative things that I would do, there was always a little voice that would always let me know that what I was doing was wrong. After a…